Basically, I forget a lot, and I sort of accepted that I won't remember anything before 2004, except my general view on things: I never bothered to hide my opinion for anyone and I was and am an idealist, but a realistic one. For some reason many people hate those when they come and love them when they leave.. I had and have a plan and I have always been steadily working off an imaginary checklist. I don't remember anything between 2006 and 2008 either. Now there's this girl in my class for a couple of months now and she mentioned lately what a sad day it was when I left the school. I didn't have a clue I knew her before those couple of months. So as soon as I got home I looked for this book that the other kids gave me in 2004 when I left the school, and now there's a lot coming back from before then. The girl was indeed in my class back then, but there's more. For example, I remember 3 girls who were in love with me when I left the school. The book pretty much confirms that. It wasn't for my looks and such, it was for my idea's, I was already working on a better world and a better school back then. Good news, you'd think. But I also remember weird things I can't place and mostly won't tell. I can't get those out of my head. And I just don't remember that girl that said it was a sad day back then. Not at all. I just see her name in the book. It seems I have a very selective memory, and now I just wonder if I should be digging deeper, or if I forgot the rest for a good reason. And I should trust the 7-year-old that forgot it all. I know some of this sounds like jumping to conclusion. But I also found out that all the conclusions I jumped to about me are right so far. I think that's where part of the key to finding out the past lies, if I choose to do so. The other part of the key would be that girl.