MAFIA 75: TROUBLE AT THE PRECINCT [HIDDEN]

[Princess Neon]

what does hammer even mean? I thought I understood but now I’m not sure I do

means endvote

Ah. Normally I'd care more about how endvoting ymself makes me look, but right now I'm letting the game stress me enough that I really don't anymore. I'll probably think better of it after I sleep on it. I actually let my manic episodes and drama escalation (which is my fault for escalating instead of backing down, NOT Neon or Sabi. Its all on me) stress me into forfeiting a tournament race I have scheduled tonight

And for the record, part of the reason I'm less willing to sub is becuase you've all said there's a meta that indicates sub is scum. I know I'm town, but it'll look really bad and falsely reflect on me as being scum and hurt the team if I drop. So I just have to suck it up and deal with it.

I mean you're defs not gonna die so the vote is mostly irrelevant you are pretty highly TRd by all over half the thread at this point except 1 person death tunneling a "scum slip" that probably just isn't a scum slip and me.

[Rumi Tobari]

Would the town players prefer I sub out so that you can have someone who actually knows what they're doing and what questions to ask and isn't prone to all of my problematic tendencies?

or would that just confbias me as scum to everyone and it's just best for me to keep being clueless and untrusting of everyone?

[ghug]

btw i checked neon red

The red check shit is triggering me.

[Rumi Tobari]

After that night phase, I'm actually worried that my continued participation is more beneficial to the scum team than the townies.

[President Eden]

Would the town players prefer I sub out so that you can have someone who actually knows what they’re doing and what questions to ask and isn’t prone to all of my problematic tendencies?

or would that just confbias me as scum to everyone and it’s just best for me to keep being clueless and untrusting of everyone?

Well it wouldn’t confbias you as mafia but nobody here wants you to leave to “get someone better” or “less problematic” or what have you. Choice is entirely up to you. I’ve enjoyed the enthusiasm but if you feel like the game isn’t right for you and you should go, don’t stay out of an obligation, do what’s right for you

[President Eden]

btw i checked neon red

The red check shit is triggering me.

red check considered harmful

[Rumi Tobari]

btw i checked neon red

The red check shit is triggering me.

red check considered harmful

red check?

[ghug]

Would the town players prefer I sub out so that you can have someone who actually knows what they're doing and what questions to ask and isn't prone to all of my problematic tendencies?

or would that just confbias me as scum to everyone and it's just best for me to keep being clueless and untrusting of everyone?

You're fine. I know it's easier said than done, and I don't want to be dismissive, but try to chill out a little. People are going to attack you in this game sometimes. Not everybody's gonna like how you're playing. It's just how it goes.

You've gotten yourself widely townread, which is valuable to your team, whichever team it is.

[ghug]

The red check shit is triggering me.

red check considered harmful

red check?

Jargon people use on other mafia sites for guilty scans from an investigative role.

I'm specifically triggered because we had a couple games where this irredeemable oaf brainbomb forced down our throats tried to convince everyone to claim a red or green check every phase as if we were the cop, which was horrible play.

[President Eden]

Top 10 Anime Betrayals

##VOTE Bonatogether

[Princess Neon]

Would the town players prefer I sub out so that you can have someone who actually knows what they're doing and what questions to ask and isn't prone to all of my problematic tendencies?

or would that just confbias me as scum to everyone and it's just best for me to keep being clueless and untrusting of everyone?

Nobody is going to auto lim your slot just because you sub.

I don't really want you to end up detrimentally effecting your health for a game

I also don't want you to sub out if you want to play and your only subbing out because you think we want you to go away because that's simply not true

If you aren't AtEing than you probably need to sub for your own health but if you aren't AtEing you also need to know not I or anyone else thinks as poorly on you over this game as you think we do or think of yourself or whatever the fuck. And I get it because I fight these thoughts every fucking day of my life thanks to a myriad of mental disorders that make me very very depressed fill me with self hate and in the case of like all day today make me just like cry non stop for no reason

So if your being genuine I will apologize to you after the game...repeatedly. Regardless I don't think your a bad person... at all. I think you're probably a very cool person who outside of a game full of deception and lies I would genuinely enjoy talking to.

I think you're very similar to me... maybe to similar hell that may be why I'm scum reading you at all people tend to scum read those who remind them of themself in mafia. The only difference between what you've stayed here in thread that you feel and me is that I have mostly tried to stop being emotional in mafia threads despite how my emotions effect my Gameplay, because I play entirely based off emotion.

All of this to say. Don't fucking hurt yourself for a game. But don't think I or anyone else holds any negative thoughts about you as an individual person outside the game

And now that I've allowed myself to be vulnerable in a way I very much don't like to do *disappears in a cloud of smoke*

[Princess Neon]

##Unvote

[ghug]

##Unvote

The real betrayal's in the comments.

[pyxxy]

After that night phase, I'm actually worried that my continued participation is more beneficial to the scum team than the townies.

Sabi 2.0

chillax, comrade

[President Eden]

##Unvote

The real betrayal’s in the comments.

Imagine quoting the wrong player for this joke smh my head

[Princess Neon]

##Unvote

The real betrayal’s in the comments.

Imagine quoting the wrong player for this joke smh my head

But they didn't quote the wrong player

[ghug]

##Unvote

The real betrayal’s in the comments.

Imagine quoting the wrong player for this joke smh my head

Motherfucker

[Princess Neon]

*insert anime giggle gif*

[ghug]

anime considered harmful

[Rumi Tobari]

Would the town players prefer I sub out so that you can have someone who actually knows what they're doing and what questions to ask and isn't prone to all of my problematic tendencies?

or would that just confbias me as scum to everyone and it's just best for me to keep being clueless and untrusting of everyone?

Nobody is going to auto lim your slot just because you sub.

I don't really want you to end up detrimentally effecting your health for a game

I also don't want you to sub out if you want to play and your only subbing out because you think we want you to go away because that's simply not true

If you aren't AtEing than you probably need to sub for your own health but if you aren't AtEing you also need to know not I or anyone else thinks as poorly on you over this game as you think we do or think of yourself or whatever the fuck. And I get it because I fight these thoughts every fucking day of my life thanks to a myriad of mental disorders that make me very very depressed fill me with self hate and in the case of like all day today make me just like cry non stop for no reason

So if your being genuine I will apologize to you after the game...repeatedly. Regardless I don't think your a bad person... at all. I think you're probably a very cool person who outside of a game full of deception and lies I would genuinely enjoy talking to.

I think you're very similar to me... maybe to similar hell that may be why I'm scum reading you at all people tend to scum read those who remind them of themself in mafia. The only difference between what you've stayed here in thread that you feel and me is that I have mostly tried to stop being emotional in mafia threads despite how my emotions effect my Gameplay, because I play entirely based off emotion.

All of this to say. Don't fucking hurt yourself for a game. But don't think I or anyone else holds any negative thoughts about you as an individual person outside the game

And now that I've allowed myself to be vulnerable in a way I very much don't like to do *disappears in a cloud of smoke*

I come from a mystery and puzzle solving background, so thankfully while emotion makes me aggressive and tempremental, I typically try to base stances on facts rather than feelings. I"m bad at interpreting the facts. My reluctance to commit hard to any stance of guilt is because I'm having difficulty finding objective facts in the subjective viewpoints and opinions. (my reluctance to commit to any stance of innocence is because I'm just relucatnat to trust others)

Also, exiting won't reaely help me. I can be set off in casual conversation and contexts for innocuous things. So exiting won't really do anything for my mental health except change where I have these episodes and who is experiencing them.

I'll try my best not to do the things that escalate these arguments needlessly, like when I actually did flag my post to the admins for malicious abusive content.