just in case Santa is muted
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The truth is that I am an angry person in real life, and an alcoholic. In the work place, on the corner of the street, in the store, you would find me to be a rational, pleasant human being. But inside me is a lot of pain because of the circumstances of my life. Some....maybe even most....of my circumstances are my own fault. Others are not. But....leave it at this: In general, I'm miserable and angry, and I drink to bury my pain....and when drunk, I get on these forums and I use the anonymous nature of a Screen Name to vent my anger upon you all.
It makes me the worst kind of person...a person seeking to inflict emotional pain upon others because I am in pain.
I have recently been confronted by a Mod, and by a politcal foe....jack Klein...and I thank them both for helping me to really see how awful I have truly become to you all.
I can not explain all the circumstances of my life; can not explain why I hurt inside so much.
I now *fully* expect to take much abuse from others. If you feel so compelled...go for it. I don't care, and I deserve it.
But I am making this post to apolgize to this entire community.
You are friends to me...you give me an escape from my pains....and I abused that, and tried to drag you in to my misery.
I am sorry.
This doesn't mean that I will agree with all of you on various topics. But I am committed to changing my ways, to being more civil, and I will try to bury my personal anger.
If you believe in prayer, then pray for me. I'm an alcoholic, and it is destroying my life, and I need help. Just being honest...
So....I am sorry.
In truth, you are some of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of not actually meeting. YOu tell me I'm a dick when I'm a dick...and you gave me honest feedback on writing when I asked for it. And now I wait to see how you respond to this.
Jack Klien is doubtful that I will change. I promise you I will.
I am sorry to all of you, my WebDip community. I won't change my opinions on matters....but i do promise you that I will make every attempt to change my approach.
I am sorry to all that I have offended.
Krellin