GOOD FUCKING GOD!!! You ***ARE*** a Democrat.
My suggestion is, first, contac Ms. Fluke at that Catholic University Georgetown. First and foremost, we know that she is a good lay....she MUST be, becuase by the volume of birth control she requires, she fucks early and often...so first hook up with her for free sex.
Then...contact Nancy Pelosi, and tell her that you are desperate unhappy, depressed, really, becuase your sole ambition in life is to prove that man can get by on nothing...and it IS worthy research....and if man can't be happy in his ambitions, what the fuck is the use of living anyway....so if the Democrats won't sponsor your life, then you will, for real, kill yourself, and, *IN* your death note, you will indict Nancy Pelosi and whateve that fuckhead in the other house is names...but anyway, you will blame it on Government, and the refusal of Democrats to support your life's artistic ambition....
Anyway....don't give up your dream, brother!!!!